ABOUT

My name is Corey Badgerow, also known as The Beanpole, and I'm from Canada. I live in Kingston, Ontario. From as far back as I can remember I've always had an addictive personality. I always wanted to have fun but I growing up as a child I was bullied and picked on. I was given the “outcast” title before I even left high school. I'm an addict all exclusive, but drugs was always the problem that people noticed first. Using drugs became normal for me, I was in deep denial about just how destructive my problems with drugs were.


I've been clean since March 02nd, 2019. I started this blog in November 2018. I knew that our world needs to hear more about recovery and the disease of addiction so I decided to write about my life and my recovery adventures. The thing about recovery, is that every good thing I have in my life today is the result of my continued recovery.


Every day I wake up and choose to continue my path and journey in recovery. I choose not to pick up and I want others to know that they can do this too. I want to encourage everyone to live their truth, to and be proud to be of who they are. Throughout when I was in active addiction, I was using drugs heavily, I was doing whatever it would take to get my next fix, I associated myself with a peer group who used as much as I did. I used all day and all night. I used before any social encounters because I was too scared to be around people people. I used drugs because I thought that was how I was suppose to have fun.


The truth is that I felt suicidal. I spent everyday feeling as though I was trapped beneath a dark stormy cloud of doom and I was impatiently waiting for the sun to shine its' sunlight through those dark stormy clouds of doom. I didn’t know how I was going to manage getting through the day without breaking down let alone make it through the rest of my life. My feelings of loneliness and despair only kept growing. I was slowly dying on the inside; it wasn’t the drugs that were killing me, it was the lies that I was telling myself. I had to lie to myself as it was the only way I could deal with the fear inside of me.


Currently, I am working on completing my 12 steps within the Narcotics Anonymous program. I'm going to college in September for Computer Networking & Technical Support and my goal is to start my own small business in the field of IT Support and Digital Marketing. I'm actively working on other projects as well. I continue to document my story in both active addiction and a life in recovery promising to be as real, honest and as authentic as I know how too.

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